Clearing the way back to EW
There are few conditions that a good,
deep cry and a long nap--and, in this case, some ibuprofen--won't help.
I had about 7 different issues in various areas of my body hurting today. I won't go into what they all were--no point dwelling on them--but it brought it home to me that I had been feeling them all in the background prior to today, but I've been in resistance to them, trying to just get the last of the book changes finished up. Resistance is purely Difficult World! Time to let go and move back to Easy World.
Today, I finished making what I believe are the last of the changes to the book and suddenly, all the aches and pains were so pronounced, I could not deny them anymore. If I hadn't been in such pain, it would have been comical. It suddenly dawned on me that my body was trying to tell me something. I'm not totally sure of the whole message, but part of it was that I needed to stop putting off self care. And that I needed to rest. And cry. So that's exactly what I did.
I laid on the wide, comfy sofa in the living room with some beautiful music from the CD Prelude to Infinity by Robert Coxon on--it was given to me by Ellen Kennon when I was in Louisiana in 2005, and at the time, I thought it was pretty, but too somber to suit me. Today, it was exactly what the doctor ordered. I listened and cried and cried and cried. No idea what I was crying about, but no matter. When the tears are there, best to milk them.
I think part of it may have been post-partum depression. I've been so fused with this book for so long, and now, it's going to be out of my hands. (Is this what it feels like to give up your baby for adoption as soon as it's born?) What's more, it won't be out on the market for another whole year, according to my editor. Oh, there's lots to do between now and then to be sure it gets a big reception, but it's all I can do to stay in Easy World myself, knowing how much it is needed by people now. I just have to trust it's all in Divine Order AND find a way to get the EW message out in a larger way for now without the book. (Anybody got any ideas?) I'm sure when I'm rested and back fully in Easy World, I'll be guided...
Anyway, after my cleansing cry, I fell asleep and had a lovely 2-hour nap. I woke up feeling much better--not just emotionally, but physically, too. I will never forget one of the first times I was using the Step-By-Step Frequency Raising System and I heard my inner voice say, "With every tear, you are clearing the way back to me."
You can't align fully with Source if you have stagnant emotional energy blocking the flow and keeping you at low frequency. Letting your emotions flow is the way to get to higher frequency, back to the realm of your Self. That was more than theoretical for me today. I found myself in Easy World again this evening.
Have you had a good cry and a nap lately? You have my permission. (smile) Your Self is waiting...
I had about 7 different issues in various areas of my body hurting today. I won't go into what they all were--no point dwelling on them--but it brought it home to me that I had been feeling them all in the background prior to today, but I've been in resistance to them, trying to just get the last of the book changes finished up. Resistance is purely Difficult World! Time to let go and move back to Easy World.
Today, I finished making what I believe are the last of the changes to the book and suddenly, all the aches and pains were so pronounced, I could not deny them anymore. If I hadn't been in such pain, it would have been comical. It suddenly dawned on me that my body was trying to tell me something. I'm not totally sure of the whole message, but part of it was that I needed to stop putting off self care. And that I needed to rest. And cry. So that's exactly what I did.
I laid on the wide, comfy sofa in the living room with some beautiful music from the CD Prelude to Infinity by Robert Coxon on--it was given to me by Ellen Kennon when I was in Louisiana in 2005, and at the time, I thought it was pretty, but too somber to suit me. Today, it was exactly what the doctor ordered. I listened and cried and cried and cried. No idea what I was crying about, but no matter. When the tears are there, best to milk them.
I think part of it may have been post-partum depression. I've been so fused with this book for so long, and now, it's going to be out of my hands. (Is this what it feels like to give up your baby for adoption as soon as it's born?) What's more, it won't be out on the market for another whole year, according to my editor. Oh, there's lots to do between now and then to be sure it gets a big reception, but it's all I can do to stay in Easy World myself, knowing how much it is needed by people now. I just have to trust it's all in Divine Order AND find a way to get the EW message out in a larger way for now without the book. (Anybody got any ideas?) I'm sure when I'm rested and back fully in Easy World, I'll be guided...
Anyway, after my cleansing cry, I fell asleep and had a lovely 2-hour nap. I woke up feeling much better--not just emotionally, but physically, too. I will never forget one of the first times I was using the Step-By-Step Frequency Raising System and I heard my inner voice say, "With every tear, you are clearing the way back to me."
You can't align fully with Source if you have stagnant emotional energy blocking the flow and keeping you at low frequency. Letting your emotions flow is the way to get to higher frequency, back to the realm of your Self. That was more than theoretical for me today. I found myself in Easy World again this evening.
Have you had a good cry and a nap lately? You have my permission. (smile) Your Self is waiting...
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